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#MilWordy Update: 136,621 words (7,641 words/day to complete)

Started working my part-time gig. I was really nervous before the first appointment. Now, it’s as though my emotions have recognized that this is something I know how to do.

I got an email from a former boss. They have a possible position open. I’m going to listen. I’m sort of enjoying the new gig, even though it doesn’t pay the best. (Especially not for the area I’m living in.) It lets me stretch muscles I haven’t used in a long time.

Creatively, I still haven’t gotten much of anything written and I don’t know why. Writing used to always be my go to for relaxation and yet, I’m still having issues putting pen to paper. Or maybe that’s it. I’ve started writing on the computre mostly and I need to shake it up by using a notepad. I’ll have to give that a try.

My new computer chair showed up and I am so happy. I can’t wait to uncrate the darned thing and get it upstairs. This Victorian chair… well, it’s nice, but I’m not wearing two layers of petticoats to sit on it, so it’s a bit unforgiving. And no, I’m not going to take up wearing petticoats just to keep the chair. I’ll probably keep it for working on my weaving because it’s the right height. But I generally don’t have to spend 6-8 hours sitting when I’m weaving. 🙂

Spent time around a campfire last night and it was good fun. The marshmallows were the size of a fist though, which made the toasting of such slightly unwieldy. Tasty though. Sort of warm marshmallow fluff with the nice sharp bite of them on the outside where they charred. And to my friends who think that the burning of them is wrong – my marshmallow, my toasting method. Nom. Nom. Nom.

My new gig uses a sort of… let’s call it a business Discord forum. This is very helpful in one sense because you can ask for advice, reach out to people and it’s a BBS so you don’t have to worry about when you post something because it will generally reach the other party as needed. However, the problem with this lovely system is that it buzzes you all day. Even when you’re off doing something else, the workplace is in your pocket. This feels very boundary intrusive. On the other hand, given the nature of the work, sometimes there are emergencies/urgent items which need to be handled. I still think that downloading the app was a mistake though. It means that I don’t disconnect at all. I check it even when I’m not on-shift, as it were. That is a problem. And the stupid little buzzing bugger can break concentration at will. I’m sure there’s some way to mute it that I just haven’t found yet, but it’s a frustration point right now. There are worse things, of course.

I had a weird experience yesterday. I checked my phone and there was what amounted to an email saying “yo, there was an issue with this thing. Keeping doing what you been doing, but we’re investigating.” from the employment commission. This freaked me out a bit because I’ve been trying to navigate the evil site appropriately. And, of course, due to the fucked up priorities of this country, they are always seeking to throw people off of unemployment. Don’t even get me started on the stupidity that is our welfare system. They shamed my grandmother when she had 6 boys and a husband who was disabled. She went for food stamps when her husband could no longer work. They shamed her to the point that she left and never went back. Fuck that shit. *deep breath* Well, anyway, that’s not the oddness. The oddness is that I cannot find the message I thought I saw. Not on any email account I have. I have check the inbox, the trash, the spam, and the archive. No message. I am to the point of believing that my brain just created it out of nothing. Or, it got pulled back somehow. I don’t even know. Maybe it’s an anxiety dream. Still, it’s weird.

Goodnight y’all.

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• Goal: Finish 2 books & 12 short stories — 3 short story complete. 1 in edits.
• Goal: Keep a journal, even if it’s only one line per day — This did not happen much more than the blog posts
• Goal: Take a photo every day and make myself a book at the end of the year. — Pretty close to caught up on this one.
• Goal: Complete MilWordy. — At least I can count blog posts toward it.
• Goal: Blog every day. — And we try again.
• Goal: Modified eBay goal: List $200-$300 per day. Got $0 worth of listings today.