Monthly Archives: July 2017

A song everyone needs to listen to. I mean LISTEN.

In the interests of actually attempting to reach my goal of posting something every day this month, I joined a gym.

This is a huge deal for me. The last time I regularly went to a gym, there was one at work and I was still in college. No, that’s a lie. I went to Curves for like three weeks before I couldn’t take it anymore. That was after I was diagnosed with asthma so less than sixteen years ago. The wierdest pet is that I can better tell you which purse I was carrying at the time than I can tell you about the location of the gym.

This gym is just around they corner and has good hours. I am going tomorrow for my first workout there.

I am…. nervous? Expectant? Worried?  I don’t even know. But they have my fingerprints now, they can track me down….

I guess I have to go. Also, I just had the best idea for a story…

sleep well all

Nope, that isn’t misspelled.

I have a problem with BIC. Butt in Chair. I have a big problem putting my butt in the chair to do the work.

It’s as though I reached my big goal of being published and that was enough. It’s not that the stories have gone away or anything, it’s just that the internal pressure is gone. I let off the gas and I’ve had a really hard time pushing back down on the accelerator.

It’s gotten so bad that the fanfiction that I used to update regularly — a once a month date that I managed to make for almost five years, just stopped being written too. It was like I couldn’t stand the thought of opening a word processing program or a blog made me just cringe.

Could it have been depression/stress/diabetes/insert reason here? Sure. Thing is, those answers all feel as though I’m lying to myself. Like I’m blaming something outside for something simpler: I achieved a goal and never set a new one.

Sure I’ve had those nifty goal posts going on, but I never really internalized a large over-arching goal.

I’m doing that today instead:

Old Goal: Be a published author. — CHECK

New Goal: Be able to sustain myself on my book sales. — EEEP I’d better get going!

So, see you on the flip side. Maybe I’ll even be blogging more. Who knows?